Jul 21, 2021

End of Summer Bucket List

I was minding my own business the other day, scrolling through Instagram stories, and this woman I follow was saying how after the 4th of July, she pulls down her summer d├ęcor and starts putting up fall and Halloween. Normally, I am all for summer ending and fall beginning.  Like give me cooler temps, falling leaves, and everything pumpkin spice, but for some reason, seeing fall stuff made me feel panicked!  I feel like summer just started (it kinda technically did) and we haven't really done any traditional summer things yet!  I mostly hate summer, but for some reason the idea of being cooped up again in our house while it's cold and gray outside is just too much for me.  I'm not ready yet! Also, I feel like we've deprived Haddie of a childhood summer by staying in the AC all the time!  So it inspired me to get us together and come up with a bucket list for things to do the rest of the summer.  We've already crossed one item off the list! 

Here is the Hager Family 2021 End-of-Summer Bucket List:

  • Set up our "backyard waterpark"
    • Pool
    • Giant unicorn sprinkler
    • Splash pad

  • Go berry/pea picking

  • Watch the Olympics

  • Sunflower patch

  • Take Hank's 6 month milk bath photos

  • Go to a splash pad/park

  • Get ice cream ✅ 

    • Done! I took Haddie to Jeni's in Navy Yard and it was her first ever ice cream cone! I am so grateful for non-dairy ice cream options <3 

    • I want to also take her to get vegan soft serv and froyo

  • Farmer's market

  • Go flower picking

  • Use our new Solo stove for a fire

  • Water balloons

  • Buy/rent a power washer and do our drive and sidewalk

  • Go to the beach

  • Go on a picnic

  • Eat more summery foods

  • ...including blue crabs!

  • Carousel (only if I can find one that feels distanced/safe).  This was not on my bucket list until Haddie saw one on our walk yesterday and lost her mind.  She was like "that looks fun!!!" but of course it happened to be one that was closed

  • And Haddie's #1 item, row a boat 

I'm looking forward to using the rest of our summer to complete this list!! What's on your bucket list for the rest of the summer? Are you ready for fall this year?

Jul 19, 2021

I'm back and also I'm done but don't worry I really am back

So it's been AWHILE since I've posted, like almost a year and I'm back with a stream of conscious post and no pics. 

I was so into the idea of potentially making my blog a source of income and doing the same with Instagram that I lost sight of why I even like blogging.  I like it FOR ME.  I like having running memories of everything to look back on. I also got completely obsessed over the fear of having my children's faces, names, and information about them out there online that it stymied me and I just stopped posting.  My Instagram has totally dwindled out too, to the point where I never post and I kind of hate how my feed even looks. I have no idea how trying to take better photos ended up making me take worse photos, but whatever.  It's like the harder I try, the worst it gets. I was looking back through my old, personal IG account the other day and I had so many memories of Haddie as a baby until she was about 2 and then it stopped.  And now Instagram is saying it's not even a photo sharing app any more, but a video app and I'm just not into that.  I have no desire to learn how to make reels or TikToks.  I just don't feel like adapting.  I think video might be where my interest in social media kind of taps out.  And so, I'm back to my blog.  

I want write more often and just do it however I want. Not every post has to be "pin-worthy" or "provide value to my reader."  I want to journal my family's life and maintain a snapshot in time.  If some helpful content comes along the way, then so be it but I'm done trying to make a second career out of this when I have literally zero time and minimal desire to conform to what is necessary to be successful. There is so much pressure out there amongst the social media community with quotes like "people quit when it's hard" or "you have the same number of hours in the day as everyone else" and I'm just over it. I don't CARE anymore.  I'm just over following people for the sake of following people so that they'll follow me.  I'm tired of following people from follow chains back in the day.  I'm tired of only following moms and people "in my niche." I'm tired of thinking what my pictures will look like when I post them.  I'm tired of getting my kids to pose certain ways so that it looks good.  I'm tired of editing photos.   I'm just over trying to make it happen.   Maybe one day I'll get back to it, but having a DC area mom IG account is just not it for me.  I don't have it in me. I'm literally maxed out and it's an added stress that I just do not need.  I'm not going to get rid of my account because I still like having it and I want to get back to just doing my blog and IG for me and my family and friends (and whoever actually enjoys following me bc they like me and not bc they have to).  I like that I have a safe space where there aren't a ton of pics that show their faces and I do like the GENERAL theme of my blog, like I do live in the nation's capital, so I hope to show more of that as we get out and about more often, but I'm just done trying to make it A THING and not just a fun hobby.

OKAY wow that was a ramble and honestly I have no idea if it even made sense but I'm hitting publish. 

Aug 20, 2020

First Trimester Recap

*Note: I wrote this a few weeks ago, so some things have actually changed, but I'll write a recap on second trimester later!*

*NOTE 2: I put pictures in here and I have no idea why they aren't showing up*

I stopped my Covid real-time posts on here and took it to my journal because it was just constantly changing and stressful and then slowly just became a way of life. This has been such a hard year for our country and there are constantly things happening.  I've been trying to capture it all in my journal so that I never forget what it's like to live during these times, but we are all experiencing it and we all have our own thoughts so I decided to stop putting all mine here and keep it in my journal. 

If you follow me on Instagram, you saw our news that we are expecting baby #2 in January!  I didn't blog much the last time I was pregnant, so I want to try to at least get a few posts up here and there. 

I think the main things people are curious about are how I'm feeling, what I'm craving, does Haddie know and what's her reaction, am I showing, do we know the sex, do we have names picked out, and I've actually gotten a lot of questions about the nursery.  SO, here we go.  

First, I want to say that this baby is very much wanted and planned.  We've been wanting to grow our family basically since Haddie was born, but life had other plans. We have been trying for awhile, so no, this is not a "quarantine baby."  We feel truly so grateful and blessed and don't take a second of this for granted, hard moments and all.  

How am I feeling?
I could write an entire treatise on how I've been feeling, but I'll sum it up by saying the first 3.5 months were literally miserable.  I had thought that I'd had bad morning sickness with Haddie, but this has been next level.  I felt great for the first couple of weeks we found out (and we found out very early, like 10 days past ovulation early) and then one day it was like a flip switched and I was hit with illness.  I was nauseous 24/7.  From the time I woke up until the time I went to bed, and then also all night long.  I mean, rolling waves of nausea, constantly.  Some days I would throw up 5-6 times a day, some days I wouldn't throw up at all.  Whenever I did throw up, it didn't bring any relief.  I was shaking and lightheaded too.  When I laid down, the room would spin.  I also had near-constant headaches and migraines.  I was basically non-functional.  I did the bare minimum at work, home, and mothering.  I felt like a horrible mom, a bad wife, and a crappy employee.  I would say I didn't feel well and Haddie would say "again?"  It was like a dagger to my heart.  I tried taking Unisom at night and B6 during the day.  It didn't do much, but it did help me sleep.  My OB also prescribed me Zofran but I was nervous to taking it after reading side effects. Eventually, she prescribed me Diclegis and it cured me!  That drug is a miracle.  I was like a new woman overnight. It worked so well that I was actually afraid something was wrong!  Since starting that around week 14, I have barely felt nauseous -- sometimes certain smells will set me off or I'll forget to take my morning dose, but it's been super manageable since then.  The migraines are another story.  I've started taking magnesium in the morning which has helped a bit and I do take my prescription, Fioricet, when I absolutely have to.  I've also had every other textbook pregnancy symptom along the way so far from cramping to tailbone pain to sciatica and heartburn.  It kind of cracks me up how I seem to hit every single symptom! One symptom that plagued me last time seems to be a lot better this time and that is anxiety.  I've tried my absolute hardest to just stay off of Google and to just not let my mind go where it shouldn't go.  I didn't allow myself to enjoy any of my pregnancy with Haddie and my main goal has been not to allow that to happen this time.  

Accurate portrayal of how I looked and felt for 4 months ha. 

Any cravings? 

Onto my diet, LOL.  I've been craving sushi, salt and vinegar chips, fries, tomato-based things, and SWEETS.  My sweet tooth is OUT of control and until recently, I had totally been indulging it -- I'm talking cookies, cake, brownies, icing, candy, fruit snacks, ice cream, popsicles, cereal, the list goes on and on!  As for sushi, I've fulfilled my craving a few times by getting veggie or cooked sushi, and I even tried to make it once which didn't go well.  I've eaten more bags of chips than I can count, and my consumption of sweets has just been wild. I mean truly disgusting.  For the few couple weeks/months, I felt too sick to cook and was just eating whatever crap I could get my hands on.  Bill would make normal food for us like grilled chicken and salad, but I had no interest in that.  I've been feeling well enough to finally get back to cooking and I was making some "bad" stuff for awhile, like lots of pasta dishes and fishsticks and fries, but starting last week, I'm finally on a healthier kick.  I'm forcing myself to get more nutrient-rich meals in and I got rid of (by eating, heh) all the sweets in the house and I didn't allow myself to buy any more.  The cravings are still unreal, but I'm trying to satisfy them by healthier things like fruit.  As a comparison, with Haddie I craved pizza-everything (pizza rolls, pizza bagels, pizza Lunchables, etc) and salty things. 

Does Haddie know?

Haddie does know and she's so excited to be a "big brother."  That's what Daniel Tiger is, so that's what she thinks she is going to be.  We haven't been able to get her to understand the concept of sister vs. brother, but that's ok.  We weren't going to tell her until much later, but she overheard us talking and found the sonogram picture, so we told her.  She keeps talking about the "baby in mommy's tummy" and patting it and saying "hi baby, I'm Haddie!" It's been very cute.  She is excited to hold him and feed him.

Do we know the gender?

Which brings me to my next point, yes we know the sex! We found out early via our NIPT testing that we are having a BOY! We didn't do anything cute to find out, but I wish I had at least recorded us.  We got the test results in the middle of a work day so we both gathered around the computer and saw the results saying everything genetically was fine which was such a relief.  The doctors keep pointing out my "advanced maternal age" so I was nervous.  Then we saw the button that said click here for the sex!  We were going to try to wait and do cute cupcakes or something but we couldn't wait -- we clicked it and it said you're having a... boy! We both screamed! I think we were in shock haha.  I truly wasn't sure what I was hoping for, but I know now that I think I was leaning boy -- I feel so lucky to get to have one of each that I can hardly believe it! I have no idea what to do with a boy, but everyone says they are so special and their love for their mama is just special and different, so I'm very excited for that.  At this point, this poor child is going to have no clothes, lol.  We got most of Haddie's clothes for the entire year from my showers and I didn't realize how lucky I was until now!  Baby clothes ain't cheap!  I am going to go through her clothes and sort through anything a boy can wear.  I got a few hand-me-downs from a neighbor and my friend and I plan to slowly stock up over the next few months.  

Am I showing?

I am definitely showing.  They aren't lying when they say you show quicker with subsequent pregnancies!  I feel like I went to bed one day looking normal and the next woke up with a bump that hasn't gone away since!  I'm really uncomfortable in regular clothes, so I'm wearing the few summer maternity pieces I have and just ordered a bunch more.  I didn't really need to start wearing them last time until fall! I have two pairs of maternity shorts now and they are the greatest thing since sliced bread.

Any plans for the nursery?

Everyone keeps asking me what room will be the nursery and do we have a theme planned.  We are going to use the guest room for his nursery, and I think we are going to move the guest bed into our office for the time being.  It will be a guest room/office combo until we can get our basement fixed up.  When I planned Haddie's nursery, I told Bill that if we ever had a boy, he could plan his nursery.  I was hoping he'd forget that promise, but no luck haha.  Luckily, we both had sort of the same vision -- he wants to do a mountain/adventure theme, which is precisely what I was thinking! I have been doing some preliminary planning on Pinterest and I can't wait to get started.  Our job situations are both in flex right now, so we don't want to get too far into the nursery in case we need to end up moving, but I'm still itching to start! 

Any names? 

Absolutely not haha.  I had some cute girls named picked out (like Hazel James!) and I know my preferred boy name, but Bill and I can't agree on anything.  We loved Jackson/Jax for awhile, but the moment passed.  Haddie has suggested something which is growing on both of us, but for now the baby is nameless.  

Something not many people have asked about, but has been a huge thing for me has been being pregnant during a pandemic.  It's worth a post of it's own and I intend to write one, but suffice it to say it's been different.  It hasn't been all bad, but it's definitely different. 

So that's it for now.  Is there anything else you want to know? 

Please send me all your boy name recommendations!!!

Aug 16, 2020

Recent Amazon Faves

I've been sharing some products on Instagram and with my friends that I've been loving lately and thought it might be easier to compile them here! 


 Currently can save 10% with a coupon! My keyboard was embarrassingly dusty and dirty and this worked a MIRACLE on it!! It's also fun to use.


 I've been eyeing all of the cute "mama" beaded bracelets, but didn't want to pay $20 for something I knew I could make myself, so I got this cute kit and they are awesome. So far I've only made a rainbow "H" bracelet for Haddie, but she loves it. It comes with everything you need.

 Currently 35% off! I had been wanting one of these forever, and when I got it it was 50% off, which it's not anymore, but 35% off is still a great deal. I haven't set it up yet, but I heard from many parents that this is one of their kids' favorite summer toys.


 Currently 5% off. We have been having some moisture issues in our house with all of the recent rainfall and I got this to see if our dehumidifiers are actually working. It's been really helpful to see how efficient our AC is too by reading the temp in each room.


 5% off. Our freezer doesn't have an ice maker and for the longest time, I just went without ice. I don't like traditional ice cube trays because I feel like they pick up the smell of the fridge and they are so hard to get out, but these are awesome. They all come with lids so no worries about them absorbing any smells, and the bottom is silicone so they just pop right out.


 I mentioned our moisture issue, and these bags are life-savers! You just hang them in the closet in any room that feels damp and they absorb excess moisture. I prefer the unscented option, but looks like they are sold out.


 Save $0.65. This mitt is a hand-saver! I love my St. Tropez sunless tanner, but my hands would always be horrific. Finally caved and got a mitt and it's so worth it. Not only does it save your palms, but it helps the product go on so much better.


 This is the tannner I use!


If you're pregnant, these maternity shorts are amazing. They truly feel like butter, they are cute and trendy AND they have a pocket!


Haddie is recently obsessed with frozen and we got these people for her half birthday. They fit into her Fisher Price Princess Castle perfectly and she's had a blast with them.


This is the aforementioned castle.


 This fish oil TRULY 100% honestly doesn't taste like fish at all. It tastes like a creamy dessert! I had my doubts when I ordered it, but I've been needing a fish oil for the omega-3s and this is really good. Pro tip: it needs to be refrigerated, a mistake that I made when I initially ordered it.


 10% off currently. Since getting pregnant, I've had to take a lot more medicine than usual and since I prefer gummy vitamins, I needed a huge pill organizer to help me keep track of everything. This fit the bill!
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