Monday, January 21, 2019

On the eve of my baby's first birthday

It's nearly 11pm and I can't sleep because tonight my baby turns a year old! Tomorrow my baby is no longer a baby, but a toddler, even though she'll always be my baby. This year went by in the blink of an eye even though some days felt like mini eternities when we were in the thick of it.

It absolutely astounds me that at this time last year, I was laying in a hospital bed, riding through waves of cramps as we waited and hoped for the Cervidil to be enough to induce labor (spoiler alert: it wasn't - birth story finally coming soon!). A year! A full year and that feels like yesterday. Each and every moment of my labor and delivery with Haddie feels like literal yesterday. It is so vivid in my mind and it truly feels like yesterday that I was still pregnant, like yesterday that our baby was finally born, like yesterday that she was taken to the special care nursery, like yesterday that we brought her home. Like yesterday that I was struggling to recover from delivery and learning to adjust to sleep deprivation.  Like yesterday that my parents and brother came to visit and we were sitting on the couch watching the Olympics with a 3 week-old baby. So many "like yesterdays" - the first time I fed her, our very first night home with her when that little bassinet that had dutifully sat empty next to our bed for months was finally filled with it's occupant, the first week, first month, first of many doctors appointments and shots, first time she rolled over, first smile, first laugh, the first time she met every one of our relatives and friends, her first road trip, first flight, first bite of food, first sip of water, first time at the ocean, and the lake, first time seeing rain, and snow, cats, dogs, birds, sun, sky, wind - all of it! First of every holiday, from St. Patricks Day to Easter to 4th of July, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year's and this, her first MLK Day. First book we read, first song we sang, first bottle she took. First time she played with each of her toys and stuffed animals, first time she wore every cute outfit. Her first sicknesses and injuries, the first time she held my hand.  All the little discoveries she's made from mirrors, to crawling, to her first steps.  Also the lasts - last night in her bassinet, last time she wore each of her newborn, 3m, 6m, 9m, 12m clothes, last night in her swaddle, then Woombie, then sleepsacks.  Last bath in her baby bath, last ride in her swing, last trip in her infant carseat, last time she sat in her boppy, bouncer, and little chair. Last time eating pureed food. Last time in her wrap.  All of this, every moment, feels like yesterday, and yet it's taken place over an entire year.  The first moment I saw her little tiny face, feels like yesterday and yet it was 366 days ago. 

I know they say it gets faster and faster, but I really hope the next few years feel a little bit slower.  I am trying to work on savoring the moment and slowing down, but life sure has a way of making it difficult to do that.  So tonight I'm looking forward to savoring tomorrow and celebrating my girl's first birthday by doing all of the things she likes, even though I have to work, and even though she's getting her 12m shots on her actual birthday.  And I'll try not to cry in my protein shake in the morning over the fact that I no longer have a baby but a toddler.

Like yesterday

Friday, January 11, 2019

5 on Friday



Not linking up with anyone this week mainly because I'm trying to get this up really fast!

1. I don't know if I mentioned it on the blog yet, but I have been working part time at my old company in a different role. It's a temporary job for a few months while we complete a large project, but today I got the opportunity to go full time!  I'm going to try it out for a week and see how it goes.  It has been thoroughly exhausting to work and take care of Haddie, but it's also been really nice to be back in the work force! We have decided to hire a part time nanny/sitter for a couple of days a week, but have just started that process.  If you have any tips for either working with your kid or for hiring childcare, please let me know!


Send help lol
2. I am getting really excited for Haddie's first birthday party.  It's almost as exciting as planning my wedding, ha.  I want to order everything this weekend since it's next Saturday! Check out my Pinterest board for some of my early inspiration.

Sick us
3. I am still sick.  Haddie's finally almost better.  She's been sick since December 12th. It started as a cold, then we took her to the dr the day before we went home to Ohio and it turned out she had an ear infection.  They put her on amoxicillin which gave her horrible diarrhea which gave her a horrific diaper rash.  We took her to urgent care on NYE and it had morphed into a double ear infection and a sinus infection.  They switched her antibiotics and gave her a prescription diaper rash cream.  She finished the last of her antibiotics today and her rash is nearly gone.  I, on the other hand, got sick the day we arrived in Ohio (Dec 27?) and I think the worst of it is finally over, just a little stuffy still but I finally have energy back. Bill is about on the same timeline as me.  I also have an injured foot.  I was trying to grab some crackers from the pantry and knocked a glass jar of Trader Joe's cookie butter off the shelf and it fell right onto my foot/toe.  It's pretty swollen and bruised and hurts to walk, so that's fine.  My exercise resolutions are not off to a good start.  It has really sucked because I was so excited for all of the new year's things I wanted to do, but I've just been trying to survive over here.

By the way, I want to share the craziest thing that is actually making me feel better: these ginger chews!!! 

I can't take any cold medicine while breastfeeding and I was hesitant to try natural remedies but some ladies at Bill's work recommended these.I was initially disappointed because they are the grossest "candy" I've ever tried besides black licorice, but they really work!   Super strong ginger flavor (duh) and spicy but they clear my nose and head each time I eat one and I feel markedly better since I started eating them.  I highly recommend them. 


4. In an effort to streamline cooking/shopping and get some more time back, I've been using Instantcart.  It's certainly a luxury, but it makes life SO much easier.  Yesterday I placed my orders online from both Aldi and Wegmans and within 2 hours my groceries were delivered to me.  I can't tell you how amazing it was to not have to go to the store!  Like, WHAT a great invention!! I also signed up for Hello Fresh starting next week.  I have promo codes for both of these services if you're interested.  Instantcart here and Hello Fresh here.  I will post an update next week after using HF for a week.

5. For Christmas, my sister-in-law gave me a $40 gift card to Bath & Body Works for candles, but the craziest thing has been happening lately and I'm kind of over candles.  I hate the idea of breathing in smoke and chemical fragrances, and I hate the idea of Haddie breathing it even more! And so, I bought a bunch of soaps and I cannot wait for them to arrive!  I got a notification this morning that they shipped and I squealed in anticipation! I got THREE of the luxe vanilla coconut.  YUM.
Sneak peek of my order!


How have your weeks been? I hope that everyone has been able to avoid getting sick!!

Wednesday, January 9, 2019

January Goals



Even though we are basically 1/3 of the way through January, I want to post my monthly goals:

1. Publish Haddie's birth story
2. Get a few returns from Christmas in the mail
3. Throw a great first birthday party for Haddie (and don't stress about it!!)
4. Take our Christmas decorations down
5. Whenever I'm finally feeling better, start 31 days of Yoga with Adrienne.  I really intended to do it daily starting on the 1st, but haven't been up to it.
6. Read one book
7. Make our honeymoon photo book
8. Fill out Haddie's baby book finally (before her birthday!!)
9. Sent my wedding ring set in to be repaired

Tuesday, January 8, 2019

2019 New Year's Resolutions

Photo by NordWood Themes on Unsplash

Hello trusty blog readers! As you'll see, one of my resolutions this year is to blog more, but my family has been down for the count the past few weeks with horrible head colds.  Ugh.  I'm still not 100% but I feel like I'm coming out of it.  What a start to 2019!

I absolutely love setting resolutions and goals and I love the refreshing feeling of a new year. I thought long and hard about my resolutions and word for the year, and I'm excited to share them with you.  Here's what I'm striving for this year:

1. Get organized. This is my number one goal for the year and I hope to achieve it in the first part of the year. I want to get our house organized and functional like a well-oiled machine, I want to be organized at work, personal life, and organize/plan my time better. This is also in an effort to get more quality time with my family!

2. Pay off all credit cards and then save save save!

3. Get Haddie sleeping through the night in her crib by 15 months

4. Really return to blogging. I want to blog consistently, semi-professionally, utilize social media (including Instagram stories!), post more/better photos, bring in a little money, but most importantly continue to write about my life so that I have it to look back on.

5. Work out 200 times. I read this idea on another blog.  Instead of saying "x" amount of times per week, setting a real number can help.  I love the idea of ticking off each workout that I do.

6. Cooking. I want to become more efficient with my cooking and have dinner done early (by 6/6:30), make healthier recipes, budget better, and meal plan.  I enjoy cooking but it's often a source of frustration for me lately. Bonus: Plant a garden this summer and grow/eat our own food

7. Read more - at least 10 books. I know this is a paltry number to some and hopefully I'll blow it out of the water, but I've really stopped reading.  It was one of my favorite activities as a kid so I'm trying to get back to it.

8. Continue to fine-tune my friendships.  I've done a good job of letting people go and showing up more for friends, but I want to do more of this and I need to branch out to try to make some more mom friends and get to know our neighbors.

9. Reclaim my handwriting. This might sound silly, but something embarrassing about my high school self is that I really want to be like the cool kids and the all seemed to write in a similar way so I totally stopped writing in my neat cursive and copied the hybrid print/cursive that all the cool girls were doing.  Writing in actual cursive is a lot prettier and I want to have my "own" handwriting back.  I've been looking at my old journals and remembering how I used to write, so I"m trying to do this more often. By the end of the year, I'm hoping to write like my old self again!

10. Write in my physical journal on a regular basis

11. Publish my monthly goals.  This is something that I did many moons ago and I'd like to get back to it.  I want to publish my list of monthly goals and then recap how I did on them.

12. Work towards Baby #2 - this is the biggest goal and most personal!  We are ready to start the path to the next baby and I'm putting it on here so that it's out in the universe - I'm "Secret-ing" it, like that book.

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My word for the year is hygge, the Danish word for a feeling of coziness/comfort/contentment.  I think that all of my resolutions can work together to bring everything into a state of hygge.

What are your goals this year?  Do we have any of the same? Do you choose a word for the year? If so, what is it?

PS:  Do you like the blog's new look? I'm still working on tweaking it!

My brother-from-another-mother Kyle and I always write our resolutions out and then burn them on NYE! This year we didn't burn them until NYD so hopefully that doesn't change anything! ;-)

Very bad picture of our resolutions in the fire


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