Mar 16, 2020

Day 5

*I would prefer to be writing this all in a physical journal, but I've got Haddie sleeping next to me and this is just easier to do in the dark. These posts are mainly for me, so they may feel different to readers than other posts.  For the time being, my blog is returning to the style of the olden days and is just basically my online journal.*

Well, we are on Day 5 of our "quarantime," as Bill and I have taken to calling it.  We have decided to go all in with social distancing and to do our part to flatten the curve.  We have been at it for 5 days and only have gone out once, to the liquor store when we ran out of beer.  We really are going to try not to leave our house/neighborhood if at all possible for as long as possible.  The risk is just too high for us.

Things really have taken a wild turn. All day long, there are updates and changes.  It's nearly impossible to keep up with everything.  San Francisco is under a shelter in place lockdown.  NYC has a curfew.

In many states including Maryland, most everything is shut down.  Just today, Gov. Hogan closed bars, restaurants, gyms, movie theaters, and yesterday all the gambling facilities.  Ohio did the same yesterday plus churches. My text threads with friends are just continuing updates of what is closing. All but one of my friends that I speak to regularly is now mandatory teleworking. My sister is finally done working and Kyle too.  My mom is teleworking as of Weds.  My dad is still doing some calls but will be staying home after Wednesday as well.  I hate knowing that they have to go out into the world, ugh.

This afternoon, Trump said in his briefing that things are "really bad" and that people should avoid gatherings of more than 10 people.  He went from saying we would be just fine, that we were doing great, to saying things are really bad, which we already knew.  He supposedly took a coronavirus test and it came back negative.  He also said that this could last until August.

All of the grocery stores are empty.  There's nothing on the shelves.  Nothing!  My dad went to Kroger today and said there was literally nothing, the shelves were just totally empty.  So many of my friends are posting video clips from Wegmans around here where it's just completely empty shelves/coolers.  Insane.

Spain is also under a lockdown.

Talk is starting to circulate more and more that this is something manmade/biological warfare.  I can't even say that it seems far-fetched to me and that is terrifying.

Our daycare still isn't closed, which is mind-boggling to me.  I get that people need to have childcare, I do get it, but it just seems so dangerous to me.  The kids cannot practice social distancing there on their own and there's certainly more than the 10, 25, maybe even 50 people "gathering" limits at daycares.  While kids don't seem to get too sick from it, they can, and they definitely can carry and spread it.

We've kept Haddie home since Thursday last week.  Bill was home but took sick leave last week.  This was our first day where we were both teleworking with her at home and it was ... challenging.  She's also fighting a cold/allergies and her sleep schedule is all messed up. It's difficult but we are trying to make the most of it.  She watched all of the Daniel Tigers on our DVR.

Sidebar: file the following things under things I never want to forget -- she calls Daniel Tiger "My" or "Mine."  Occasionally she'll say "My Daniel."  She's saying "ott" for "on" and "osh" for "off."  She's learned her full name and she's so proud to say it.  In the mornings, she seems to talk up a storm.  Yesterday I was wearing a UD sweatshirt and I told her what it said and she kept pointing at it and saying "Me D," because she thought I was saying "YOU D."  How precious is that? She's learned words that describe feelings -- she loves to declare when she feels "cozy" and if she's happy, particularly when she gets what she wants she says "happy now."  She can go from full on crying to "happy now" in seconds.  Her favorite thing to eat right now is croutons and she's always wanting more "coo-tahns" with "ditdit" which means ketchup.

Anyways, moving on.  She watched all the Daniel Tigers and refused to watch anything else on tv.  She did watch some Doc McStuffins on Disney+, thanks to our in-laws! I am excited to explore more things for to watch on there.  She helped me prep marinade for the chicken. We took a virtual tour of the Smithsonian Museum of Natural History, which she was surprisingly really into.  We started going through magazines to make a vision board and the pages she ripped out for hers were adorable - cats, dogs, ham sandwiches, hot dogs, fries, trucks.  All the basics you know!

Tomorrow, we want to start even more of a schedule.  I think I'm going to bite the bullet and place an Amazon order for some more things to help entertain her throughout the day.  I get a little hesitant to buy things online though -- I've read the virus can live on surfaces and cardboard for at least 24 hours. We'll see.

We are already starting to run out of fresh food.  I cut up the huge pack of romaine I got at Costco and it's already wilty.  Sigh.  I know that it's "safe" to go to the grocery, but we really want to minimize it at all costs.  We have a ton of food to get us through the long haul, but I just love fresh veggies.

I can't believe that tomorrow is St. Patrick's Day.  It is historically one of my favorite days of the entire year.  I look forward to it for weeks/months and now it's going to come and go with barely a mention.  I won't be going to the bar decked out in all green listening to loud Irish music thumping, spilling green beer everywhere as I try to do a jig. I won't smell corned beef and cabbage (or cabbage rolls) stewing in crock pots.  I am going to do my best to celebrate it at home, but it sure won't be the same.

Well, I'm going to go back to reading the news and see what changes have happened over the last hour.  I'll read sad news out of Italy and read the death counts across the world. I am not getting much sleep because my mind just spins at night.  I can't imagine how things can possibly every go back to normal.  It feels like the world as we know it is over.  The world that our kids will know is not the world that we have known our entire lives.  It also feels like we are the naive people at the beginning of a horror movie.  I hate not having any idea how bad this is going to get.  I hate that people aren't taking it seriously.  I hate knowing how much some people are struggling because their work laid them off, or schools are closed and kids aren't getting meals.  Obviously it's better for everyone to stay alive so that the kids at least have parents, but I had the hardships this is causing.  AHHH before I go down the dark path my mind seems to spiral down each night, I'm instead going to sign off by taking a moment and listing 5 things that I am grateful for today:

1. I am so lucky that Bill and I are able to work from home and that we can choose to keep our child home from daycare.

2. I'm grateful to live in a house with a yard

3. Each day, I thank the me of the past 2 weeks that I went to the stores to get provisions

4. I am so thankful for the internet, texting, Facetime, etc so that we are able to stay in touch with each other.  Sharae and I had a virtual happy hour on Saturday, which I'm sure will be the first of many of these

5. I'm so grateful that the people I love most in the world all live in states with governors who give a damn.  Both Ohio and Maryland governors are really leading the nation in their efforts and New York's governor is taking action as well.  In a time that feels like we are left without a leader, it's good to have someone to look to and to feel like there's someone in charge who cares and is taking action.

With that, I'm off to sleep.  I actually feel a lot better -- I may try to do this gratitude practice nightly!

1 comment:

  1. Yep. I keep looking at people who live in states that are taking this seriously and asking myself while I'm still here. We are so far behind. Not as far behind as FL but still so far behind.


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