Aug 20, 2020

First Trimester Recap

*Note: I wrote this a few weeks ago, so some things have actually changed, but I'll write a recap on second trimester later!*

*NOTE 2: I put pictures in here and I have no idea why they aren't showing up*

I stopped my Covid real-time posts on here and took it to my journal because it was just constantly changing and stressful and then slowly just became a way of life. This has been such a hard year for our country and there are constantly things happening.  I've been trying to capture it all in my journal so that I never forget what it's like to live during these times, but we are all experiencing it and we all have our own thoughts so I decided to stop putting all mine here and keep it in my journal. 

If you follow me on Instagram, you saw our news that we are expecting baby #2 in January!  I didn't blog much the last time I was pregnant, so I want to try to at least get a few posts up here and there. 

I think the main things people are curious about are how I'm feeling, what I'm craving, does Haddie know and what's her reaction, am I showing, do we know the sex, do we have names picked out, and I've actually gotten a lot of questions about the nursery.  SO, here we go.  

First, I want to say that this baby is very much wanted and planned.  We've been wanting to grow our family basically since Haddie was born, but life had other plans. We have been trying for awhile, so no, this is not a "quarantine baby."  We feel truly so grateful and blessed and don't take a second of this for granted, hard moments and all.  

How am I feeling?
I could write an entire treatise on how I've been feeling, but I'll sum it up by saying the first 3.5 months were literally miserable.  I had thought that I'd had bad morning sickness with Haddie, but this has been next level.  I felt great for the first couple of weeks we found out (and we found out very early, like 10 days past ovulation early) and then one day it was like a flip switched and I was hit with illness.  I was nauseous 24/7.  From the time I woke up until the time I went to bed, and then also all night long.  I mean, rolling waves of nausea, constantly.  Some days I would throw up 5-6 times a day, some days I wouldn't throw up at all.  Whenever I did throw up, it didn't bring any relief.  I was shaking and lightheaded too.  When I laid down, the room would spin.  I also had near-constant headaches and migraines.  I was basically non-functional.  I did the bare minimum at work, home, and mothering.  I felt like a horrible mom, a bad wife, and a crappy employee.  I would say I didn't feel well and Haddie would say "again?"  It was like a dagger to my heart.  I tried taking Unisom at night and B6 during the day.  It didn't do much, but it did help me sleep.  My OB also prescribed me Zofran but I was nervous to taking it after reading side effects. Eventually, she prescribed me Diclegis and it cured me!  That drug is a miracle.  I was like a new woman overnight. It worked so well that I was actually afraid something was wrong!  Since starting that around week 14, I have barely felt nauseous -- sometimes certain smells will set me off or I'll forget to take my morning dose, but it's been super manageable since then.  The migraines are another story.  I've started taking magnesium in the morning which has helped a bit and I do take my prescription, Fioricet, when I absolutely have to.  I've also had every other textbook pregnancy symptom along the way so far from cramping to tailbone pain to sciatica and heartburn.  It kind of cracks me up how I seem to hit every single symptom! One symptom that plagued me last time seems to be a lot better this time and that is anxiety.  I've tried my absolute hardest to just stay off of Google and to just not let my mind go where it shouldn't go.  I didn't allow myself to enjoy any of my pregnancy with Haddie and my main goal has been not to allow that to happen this time.  

Accurate portrayal of how I looked and felt for 4 months ha. 

Any cravings? 

Onto my diet, LOL.  I've been craving sushi, salt and vinegar chips, fries, tomato-based things, and SWEETS.  My sweet tooth is OUT of control and until recently, I had totally been indulging it -- I'm talking cookies, cake, brownies, icing, candy, fruit snacks, ice cream, popsicles, cereal, the list goes on and on!  As for sushi, I've fulfilled my craving a few times by getting veggie or cooked sushi, and I even tried to make it once which didn't go well.  I've eaten more bags of chips than I can count, and my consumption of sweets has just been wild. I mean truly disgusting.  For the few couple weeks/months, I felt too sick to cook and was just eating whatever crap I could get my hands on.  Bill would make normal food for us like grilled chicken and salad, but I had no interest in that.  I've been feeling well enough to finally get back to cooking and I was making some "bad" stuff for awhile, like lots of pasta dishes and fishsticks and fries, but starting last week, I'm finally on a healthier kick.  I'm forcing myself to get more nutrient-rich meals in and I got rid of (by eating, heh) all the sweets in the house and I didn't allow myself to buy any more.  The cravings are still unreal, but I'm trying to satisfy them by healthier things like fruit.  As a comparison, with Haddie I craved pizza-everything (pizza rolls, pizza bagels, pizza Lunchables, etc) and salty things. 

Does Haddie know?

Haddie does know and she's so excited to be a "big brother."  That's what Daniel Tiger is, so that's what she thinks she is going to be.  We haven't been able to get her to understand the concept of sister vs. brother, but that's ok.  We weren't going to tell her until much later, but she overheard us talking and found the sonogram picture, so we told her.  She keeps talking about the "baby in mommy's tummy" and patting it and saying "hi baby, I'm Haddie!" It's been very cute.  She is excited to hold him and feed him.

Do we know the gender?

Which brings me to my next point, yes we know the sex! We found out early via our NIPT testing that we are having a BOY! We didn't do anything cute to find out, but I wish I had at least recorded us.  We got the test results in the middle of a work day so we both gathered around the computer and saw the results saying everything genetically was fine which was such a relief.  The doctors keep pointing out my "advanced maternal age" so I was nervous.  Then we saw the button that said click here for the sex!  We were going to try to wait and do cute cupcakes or something but we couldn't wait -- we clicked it and it said you're having a... boy! We both screamed! I think we were in shock haha.  I truly wasn't sure what I was hoping for, but I know now that I think I was leaning boy -- I feel so lucky to get to have one of each that I can hardly believe it! I have no idea what to do with a boy, but everyone says they are so special and their love for their mama is just special and different, so I'm very excited for that.  At this point, this poor child is going to have no clothes, lol.  We got most of Haddie's clothes for the entire year from my showers and I didn't realize how lucky I was until now!  Baby clothes ain't cheap!  I am going to go through her clothes and sort through anything a boy can wear.  I got a few hand-me-downs from a neighbor and my friend and I plan to slowly stock up over the next few months.  

Am I showing?

I am definitely showing.  They aren't lying when they say you show quicker with subsequent pregnancies!  I feel like I went to bed one day looking normal and the next woke up with a bump that hasn't gone away since!  I'm really uncomfortable in regular clothes, so I'm wearing the few summer maternity pieces I have and just ordered a bunch more.  I didn't really need to start wearing them last time until fall! I have two pairs of maternity shorts now and they are the greatest thing since sliced bread.

Any plans for the nursery?

Everyone keeps asking me what room will be the nursery and do we have a theme planned.  We are going to use the guest room for his nursery, and I think we are going to move the guest bed into our office for the time being.  It will be a guest room/office combo until we can get our basement fixed up.  When I planned Haddie's nursery, I told Bill that if we ever had a boy, he could plan his nursery.  I was hoping he'd forget that promise, but no luck haha.  Luckily, we both had sort of the same vision -- he wants to do a mountain/adventure theme, which is precisely what I was thinking! I have been doing some preliminary planning on Pinterest and I can't wait to get started.  Our job situations are both in flex right now, so we don't want to get too far into the nursery in case we need to end up moving, but I'm still itching to start! 

Any names? 

Absolutely not haha.  I had some cute girls named picked out (like Hazel James!) and I know my preferred boy name, but Bill and I can't agree on anything.  We loved Jackson/Jax for awhile, but the moment passed.  Haddie has suggested something which is growing on both of us, but for now the baby is nameless.  

Something not many people have asked about, but has been a huge thing for me has been being pregnant during a pandemic.  It's worth a post of it's own and I intend to write one, but suffice it to say it's been different.  It hasn't been all bad, but it's definitely different. 

So that's it for now.  Is there anything else you want to know? 

Please send me all your boy name recommendations!!!

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